Your mom calls you that. Unfortunately,
that's also what m family has always called my cousin. B. I hate it,
because whenever Grams calls him that, your face flashes in my mind's
eye.
I tried not to have feelings for you.
Lucky for you, I'm a sucker for pretty much anyone who has feelings
for m. Or is a male friend. Or pays attention to me. I fall easily,
which is why I built all those walls. I was tired of rejection time
and time again. But you didn't reject me, did you? Not at first. You
waited until you broke down those walls, made me fall in love with
you.
It was more than the fight with the
youth group that tore us apart, B. It was that you didn't trust me,
and more, I didn't really trust you. I thought I did. I tried, but
there was still so much I needed to work through my own, that I
wasn't ready to have someone else along for the ride.
You were ready to plan your future with
me. Ready to think about homes and places to live and places to
travel and KIDS! I didn't even know who I was yet and I'm sorry I
hurt you trying to find out who that was. I never wanted to hurt you.
I did love you and I wanted to want that life with you, I just wasn't
ready. And I didn't know how to tell you that.
I was so mad for so long that you chose
your mom and...that other girl, and their conniving ways. But
honestly, that's not what tore us apart. I did. And I'm sorry.
But please, please, for the love of the
man that I know you can be, stop screwing around with those stupid,
slutty girls. You are going to catch something. You're also going too
regret this someday, because I honestly believe you're a good guy
deep down inside. I'm sorry I screwed you up.
Your Ex
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